If you know me, you know that I know stress. I have work, school, family, home, writing, tarot, knitting, and so much more that makes up my life. I’m busy, and also, I admit, rather scattered by the idea of getting it all done. Yesterday, I took some time out for me, to art journal a word cloud of everything I was stressed out about. So yes, literally, a stress bubble, on paper, right before me. It took me about an hour to be able to face it again, and to start making connections.
I pulled out my Diary of a Broken Soul deck and began to shuffle. This is one of my favorite tarot decks, that I instantly connected with and understood. It’s like it was made for me, and it never ceases to amaze me with its insights. I asked the cards about the current situation, the simply obvious overwhelm I’ve been mired in.
Current Situation
I drew the Six of Pentacles with the Two of Pentacles jumper. The Six of Pentacles is all about give and take, the necessary push and pull of life. The picture, while much different than the RWS Six of Pentacles, paints a glorious picture of a happy family, making the most out of their lives. In their happy faces, I can see prosperity, hope, and exuberance. This is what I want out of life. I want the veil to part, and to reveal harmony, exuberance, and caring. I want to provide this for my family, and to experience it for myself. I want the cycle of generosity to grow, outwards from our home, and down the generations.
The RWS Two of Pentacles is perpetually out of balance. He puts on the show that he knows what he’s doing, but it’s just a show. In reality, work/life balance is off kilter. The Diary’s Two of Pentacles shows us the way out. He is the gatekeeper, full of insight, and offering the key to the kingdom. If I follow his guidance and take the necessary leaps, I can restore the balance. I already know in my heart what to do, I just have to do it, which is the hardest part for me. As the quote goes, I need to be the change I want to see in the world.
However, me being me, I still asked for more. What does the next step need to be? Am I headed in the right direction?
Next Step
This time, I drew the Eight of Wands. The “just do it” card, and the one that usually makes me duck for cover! The RWS Eight of Wands has a wall of arrows flying overhead, and that much energy scares me. Thankfully, the Diary shows me how to stand up and take charge. I must draw power and courage from all that energy. Self-confidence and boldness will serve me well. I can get it all done, as long as I hold my head up high. I don’t have to be in control of everything, as long as I just act. It will all get done.
I am ready to do this, I just need friendly reminders once in awhile. How do you relieve stress? How do you get it all done? Do you have the confidence to see your projects through to the very end?
